A couple of things I miss about living in a big city:
1. A large library where I can spend hours looking for new interesting books and then sit in a corner and read them for yet another couple of hours. And If I get hungry there’s always a café in the same building.
2. Shopping! Being able to shop for HOURS going from store to store and when I decide to go home I still haven’t visited even 10% of all stores available.
3. Nice boheamian cafés with old furniture where it’s so dark that candles are lit all times of the day.
4. The fact that there’s always something new to discover. A part of the city never seen, a shop never visited, a beautiful park never walked by.
5. Organizations. Even if I’m not active in one right now it would be nice to know that there actually are some around. I’d like to become involved in Greenpeace for example. And I used to be involved in a political youth party.
6. Those unusual stores you mostly find in large cities and barely ever in a small town like the one I live in. New age stores, chinese stores, punk clothing stores, record stores with obscure bootleg cd:s, political book cafés and second-hand bookshops.
7. And of course the really big stores like IKEA, Elgiganten and ONOFF.
8. Alternative clubs where they play nice music and not only the shit you hear on the radio and see on MTV.
Today I really miss my old hometown Västerås where I lived between 1999 and 2004. I only lived there for five years but those years were the best of my life for so many reasons. Today I miss Västerås mainly because of all the fun I had there but also because it was a so much better city to live in than this shithole I’m currently residing in. You see Västerås with it’s approximately 107 000 inhabitants is Sweden’s fifth most populous city. Compare that to Hultsfred with it’s 5000 inhabitants. Jeez, there lived more people and there were more stores in a god damn suburb in Västerås than the entire Hultsfred!
The only thing of worth we have here is the rock festival that takes place in june every year. But one week of fun does not in any way make up for the remaining fifty-one weeks of the year. This is a terrible town to live in. I’m not kidding you when I tell you the best shop in town is Coop Konsum. That’s a grocery store! But they do have some make-up and they do have some movies. And oh boy, even some decoration ornaments! This is the reason to why I buy most of my clothes, movies, books, technical gadgets, well pretty much everything online. Or go to a close-by town like Linköping, Växjö, Västervik or Jönköping. Ok I just realized there’s one more good thing about this town but that’s nothing special for this town but common in all small shitholes like this. It’s easy to find a apartment. And they’re cheap. It took me one month to find my apartment and it was actually the first and only apartment I looked at. Nobody but me was interested in it either so the same day I had a look at it I also signed the lease contract. That would never ever have happened in Västerås, or any other big city for that matter unless you’re rich or have connections. Nevertheless that doesn’t make up for living here either.
In the weekends there’s nothing to do here but get drunk and go to the pub. At least when you’re drunk you might fool yourself into believing that the pub is fun. Which it really isn’t. Like I’ve said before the only thing that keeps me from getting the hell away from here asap is a few good people, including my family. It’s a pain to move to another city and start all over.
If you google “whirlwind” my web page is search result three on page one. Number 3 of 7 270 000 search results.
If you google “angelica” my web page is search result nine on page one. Number 9 of 12 700 000 search results.
I think those are very good results conscidering that’s number three and nine out of millions of results. And both Whirlwind and Angelica are single words and very common words aswell. Not to mention Angelica isn’t even in my url.
I’m a bit proud.
Meet my new affiliate Clare!
A lot of people keep their blogs secret to their families and IRL friends. Sometimes I wish nobody I know IRL knew about this blog because then I could rant about anything and anyone. If I was annoyed with a friend or one of my siblings I could write about it here and they’d never read it and be hurt over me speaking my mind about them. Although even if you keep your web page and blog secret chances are someone you don’t want to see it will stumble upon it and read things they’re not supposed to read. How hard is it really to find someone through google? I’m a curious person and sometimes I google people I used to know way back and a couple of times I’ve found their blogs and read up on their current lives. I try to keep the most personal details about my life private and I never rant about other people unless they really have it coming. I wouldn’t want my parents to visit my web page though. It’s full of embarassing photos of me being drunk and silly and pictures of what my parents porch really looked like after the parties I held there while they were away. I don’t think they visit my web page though. I’ve implied that I don’t want them to.
Do people you know IRL know about your web page and blog?
I haven’t slept yet because I feel sick. Kneeling over the toilet I just said goodbye to my breakfast. Note to self: Take it EASY with that vodka! Other than the hangover from hell yesterday was ok I guess. Although I was terribly tired after a busy day. Well, at least more busy than my average day.
Jehovas witnesses rang my doorbell. I ignored them. I don’t like people actually visiting my home trying to get me to buy something or in this case trying to preach about god to me. If I want to buy your stupid books I’ll look them up myself and if I want to join Jehovas wintnesses (yeah right!) I’ll go find them myself. Oh and I HATE people calling me trying to sell me their stupid shit. Once again, if I want their stupid shit I’ll go to the store to buy it. I’m not fond of people forcing themselves on me.
Oh and I got my paper from church about my leave from it. I just need to sign it and send it back and then I’m officially no longer a member of the swedish church! It’s not something spectacular like renouncing my faith, converting etc. I can’t renounce something I’ve never had. I’m a atheist and it’s as simple as that. Like I said in a previous entry, being a member of something I don’t believe in (and party even dislike) is stupid. And now I don’t have to pay the church taxes anymore. Since I’m not religious my grandma can’t come up with any reasons of the spiritual kind to keep me a member of the church so instead she told me about how people leaving it basicly would lead to all churches closing down, falling apart etc. You see without members they wouldn’t get enough church taxes to keep them open and functionable. I said that I think the swedish church with it’s seven million members (in a country of a total of nine million inhabitants!) would probably do just fine without that 1000 SEK I pay in taxes to them every year.
1. A couple of days ago I bought another pair of fake converse. They look exactly like the real deal but are of another brand. Now I own four pairs of converse and three paris of fake converse. I know that I don’t actually need that many but I like being able to match every outfit I own with converse. I don’t have any blue though. I’d like a blue pair aswell.
2. Today my boss gave me a big easter egg fillled with lots of candy. She’s the best! I usually don’t work thursdays but since tomorrow is a holiday in Sweden I changed day this week.
3. We still have snow but today I actually enjoyed it because it was beautiful outside. It looked like the most magical winter wonderland ever. Then it got hotter and all the snow on the trees melted away and the roads became muddy and wet so now I wouldn’t mind the snow disappearing.
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OK, today is March 18. March is a spring month where I live. So why do we have SNOW?! Yesterday it started snowing and now there’s a “snow chaos” in southern Sweden. Of course whenever there’s more than one decimeter snow here in south they call it snow chaos. Jeez, spend a year up north! I grew up there and I haven’t seen a single snow storm worth calling snow chaos while living down south. I guess people here just aren’t used to snow, at all. Anyway, this is bad! I was so happy because it really felt like spring had arrived with snow drops, “krokusar” (translation??), tulips and other flowers! Now they’re probably dying under the snow. How lovely!
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Ok I’m upset. I just browsed the site www.urbandictionary.com which I always go to when I don’t understand american slang used in movies or wherever. It’s basicly a slang dictionary wiki style and therefor you have to expect some abuse and irrelevant information. But what I found today actually shocked me. I searched “Sweden” since I was curious about what people had written about my country. I also checked a lot of other words starting with “Swedish” and it turns out Urban Dictionary is FULL of weird words with the worst pornographic meanings you can imagine, all starting with “swedish”. Apparantly a “swedish kiss” and a “swedish breakfast” are words used to describe some pretty gross sexual things. First I thought that there might be someone joking around or something but the words were all submitted by different users. So my question is; are these words actually used internationally? What the fuck?!
Like it’s not bad enough that way too many movies portray swedes as stupid. I don’t know how many movies I’ve seen that in. Like saying “he’s swedish” when someone does anything stupid explains it all. I remember one episode of “Sabrina the teenage witch” (obviously a show not to take seriously, but still!) where they explained a cavemans weird behaviour with him being swedish. God I’m so sick of it. Oh, and don’t forget that we’re all sluts also! Apparantly swedish women have a reputation of being easy in southern Europe (and the rest of the world??).
For fucks sake, Sweden is the most equal country in the world, we have a very low crime rate and we’re number six on the Human developement index. “The Human Development Index (HDI) is the normalized measure of life expectancy, literacy, education, standard of living, and GDP per capita for countries worldwide. It is a standard means of measuring well-being, especially child welfare. It is used to determine and indicate whether a country is a developed, developing, or an underdeveloped country. It is also used to measure the impact of economic policies on quality of life.” I think number six is pretty damn good compared to USA on number 12 and UK on 16.
I guess the thing is nobody knows anything about Sweden. It’s just that small European country where the vikings used to live. It’s easy to make fun of something you don’t know anything about. But seriously, go search the word “swedish” at www.urbandictionary.com and tell me what the fuck that’s about.
I’m going to find the number to the pastors expiditon (or whatever it’s called) and call them about my official leave of the church. ASAP. This is something I should have done years ago because I see no reason whatsoever to be a member of something I don’t believe in. I don’t want to be like the majority of swedes who are members of the church for no other reason than tradition.
In Sweden religion isn’t widespread like in USA. Although 75% of Swedens population are members of the swedish lutheran church it’s mostly a tradition thing since almost all native swedes are baptised as infants and through that become members. Being able to be wed in a church is also a reason for many to be members since church weddings are very common here. Actual church attendance and religion in every day life is quite rare though and Sweden is known as a non-religious country.
I was brought up in a non-religous home but I’m still baptised and I was forced (by my non-christian mother!) to go thourgh the confirmation ceremony, because it’s a TRADITION. I was so mad at my parents and made a wov to leave the church as soon as I became eighteen. I still haven’t, because I haven’t taken the time to make that phone call yet. I really should because I see no reason not to. Why be a member of something I don’t even believe in? I think swedes are really weird when it comes to religion. We baptise our children, get married in churches and go through the confirmation ceremony but only out of tradition and not actual belif. I think it’s disrespectful towards the people who actually believe to go through with these ceremonies without caring about their actual meaning. It’s like voting for a political party who’s opinions you don’t agree with. Nobody would do that but when it comes to religion it’s standard. It’s so stupid and I don’t want to be like that. I don’t care if I’ll never be able to get married in a church and if I have children I won’t baptise them because I think it’s a choice they have to make by themselves. If I could choose I’d also prefer to be buried in the forest under a cairn but I don’t think it’s legal to be buried outside a graveyeard in Sweden.
What do you religious people think about this? I only know the opinions of atheists when it comes to this so I’m really interested in your opinions.
Just a note: I kind of like educating people about Swedish culture since I live in such a small country which most people barely know anything about. I mean, what do you think about when someone say Sweden? Vikings with horned helmets? Actually vikings never wore horned helmets. Snow, raindeers and dog sleds? Southern Sweden actually barely have snow during the winter nor dog sleds or raindeers. Blondes named Ingrid with weird german sounding accents? God how I hate that stereotype so often seen in movies! And 99% of all attempts of copying a swedish sounding english fails miserably. The next time someone mentions Sweden you should think about the Nobel price, vikings without horned helmets and the fact that several of the weekdays english names originiates from names of norse mythology (the viking age religion of all Scandinavia). Although I’m sure I also stereotype other countries I get very sick of widespread ideas of what Sweden is like which are totally wrong.
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It doesn’t feel like it’s already been a week since my last blog entry but obviously it has. Time flies even though I’m doing pretty much nada. I’m free from work this week so I sleep until late afternoons and spend my nights watching “The X-files”. I watched all 24 episodes of season 4 in three days. That’s 24 hours of X-files in three days. No, I don’t have much of a life right now. Although I saw a friend yesterday. We took a late walk and sat down in a playground with bottles of vodka drinks. We sat there for at least one hour until it got too cold. This is Sweden in early march after all and spring hasn’t quite arrived yet.
I’m working on a new layout for Whirlwind but it’s not going too well. I can’t find enough good photos to use and I’m generally uninspired. I have a few really good ideas but I don’t know how to make them happen. It will probably take me a couple of weeks to produce something worth using. I spent several days (yes, as in 24 hours x a lot) working on the current layout before I felt that it was good enough to call finished. This current layout is by far the best work I’ve done in photoshop and now that’s the standard my next layout must meet. It must be just as good as this one or preferably even better. And I must have a white background. That’s very important because I’m sick of white letters on black.
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That’s it for now. I’m going to watch a couple of episodes of X-files now. Mulder and Scully are the coolest and they should so get married or something. X-phile shipping ftw!