I just noticed that the scar on my ear looks like it’s turning into a keloid scar. Fuck! I got a 2 cm long scar on my ear and a 3 cm long on my cheek close to my ear after a incident when I fell into a barbed wire fence. I was walking with a dog who suddenly started running. I wasn’t prepared for that and I was basicly dragged along, slipped in the mud and bang hit my head in the wooden part of the fence and ripped up my ear and my cheek on the barbed wire. At first I thought I had a huge hole in my head or something because there was a lot of blood. After some cleaning of my hair and ear I saw that it wasn’t more than some nasty cuts. Some band aids and a tetanus shot later I was fine but the incident left those two scars of which one now looks like it’s turning into a keloid. Fuck fuck fuck! Basicly keloid scars are scars that grows out of their boundaries. They become thick and not so pretty looking. Thank god at least it’s just a scar on my ear and not in my face.
Damn, three blog posts in less than twelve hours. Amazing. Usually I only blog once or twice a week. I should keep this up. Oh and my site is getting more and more visitors. Not everyone comment of course but it’s nice to know that a lot of people at least visit me. The best thing is that I’ve got a lot of returning visitors. If people come back over and over again that must mean I’m doing something right here. I just love my site. I’ve been doing this for so many years now and I’m proud of how much I’ve managed to learn all by myself. I started building my first web page in the spring of 1999 with the help of a n00bs guide to webdesign kinda book and here I am nine years later still building web pages. Nowadays using CSS, XHTML and a tiny bit of PHP. Back in 1999 I had this crap site coded in HTML without any CSS whatsoever with frames and a code so messed up just thinking about it gives me nightmares. I’m sure that I’ll in a couple of years think back on my coding skills in 2008 and laugh. I feel like I’m constantly improving with both the coding and the layouts I create in Photoshop. I still want to study web design though because to get somewhere with this a grade from school stating what I can do is good. Plus there’s still lots of things left to learn. I’m not an advanced coder since I’m clueless when it comes to PHP and SQL and that has to change.
Still watching “My So-called Life” but I reeeally should go to sleep now.
EDIT: Meet my new affiliates Luisa and Amberlynn and my new link exchangee Sushy !
Sometimes I wish I was born in another decade. That I hadn’t been a kid but a young adult in the nineties. Generation X seems to have had more fun than us from generation Y. I’m sure the nineties wasn’t as fantastic as I remember it to be. As I said in a previous entry, it seems so wonderful now just because it’s over. And probably because the nineties is my childhood. I started first grade in 1990 and graduated from junior high in 1999. I count those years as my childhood. In 1999 I turned sixteen and from that age I feel that I was more of a young adult than a child. So those ten years from 1990-1999 holds all my childhood memories since I was very little in the eighties and don’t remember much of my earliest years. I don’t think this century is remarkable in any way. I look back at my high school time (1999-2002) and think about people I miss and things we did which I miss but I don’t miss the time in itself. I guess that’s because things haven’t changed enough yet for me to miss what was back then. The nineties on the other hand feels like a very different time. It was a very different time.
I smile when I think about how funny we dressed. The brightly coloured tights and bicycle pants, the scrunchies and poofy bangs, the flannel shirts, vests, polo sweaters and platform shoes. And all that sports wear! Back in 1996 everyone dressed like they were on their way to the gym. Adidas pants, Fruit of the loom t-shirts and Champion sweaters. Looking through old yearbooks from junior high almost everyone is wearing sports clothes on the photos. WHAT were we thinking?! I’d never leave my apartment dressed like that! Unless I was actually engaging in a actual sport activity (NOT likely!). And the hair. I remember that ALL girls had a bob parted in the middle. Exactly like my current hairstyle! I’m ten years late though because back then I had long hair.
The music was better in the nineties. Or rather the popular music was better than now. I never ever listen to the radio or watch MTV because I hate 90% of what’s on there. I hate RnB, hip hop and boring mainstream pop like Britney and Madonna. And I just can’t stand the whole emo trend. There’s a lot of good bands around but they’re not the ones given much attention in mainstream media. Back in the nineties the popular music was good. At least a lot of it. RnB and hip hop hadn’t taken over yet. God how I can’t stand that music! That trend has been going on waaaay too long now! Please go away.
TV was also better in the nineties. I barely ever watch tv nowadays. There’s a couple of shows which I enjoy but they’re not many. My computer on the other hand is full of tv-series from the nineties. I spent a large part of this winter watching all nine seasons of “The X-files”. Today I’ve been watching a couple of episodes of “My So-called life”. I came to think about that show yesterday when I realized my hair looks like Claire Danes did in that show and since I haven’t watched the show in a year or so I decided it was time to see it again. That’s actually what brought back all fond memories of the trends of the nineties.
I can’t say that I liked the fashion of that time better than the current fashion though. We dressed pretty horrible. The only cool fashion of the nineties was grunge. Love it! Some days I look like someone from a Seattle rock concert in 1992 dressed in my trashed jeans, converse and army jacket. I can be quite a slacker. It’s funny to think that looking like that actually was fashionable some fifteen years ago.
God I feel so old when I think about my childhood! So much has changed and kids of today probably think everything that I was used to when I was their age is very old fashioned. The world is changing so fast. Sometimes I just can’t get that I’m actually turning twenty-five in two months. Am I not supposed to be more… grown up? I don’t know. It’s just weird thinking about the fact that I’ll be thirty in five years. I mean, thirty! That’s definitely grown up! I used to think thirty was old but now I don’t know. I’m there in five years and I have a whole bunch of friends who are in their thirties. I even have friends who have kids. When did we become so grown up? I remember when we all lived with our parents. Just a couple of years ago I barely knew anyone who lived on their own but now I barely know anyone who don’t. I’m definitely not a kid anymore. Not even a teenager and pretty soon not even close to being a teenager. And In a couple of years I’m not even amongst the “young” people anymore. Not that I feel old and I probably won’t in ten years either. Growing up and getting older is exciting though. I’d never want to be a teenager again. The older you get the more seriously people take you and the older you get the more you learn. I can handle life and people so much better now than ten years ago and I know so much more about everything. The teenage years are spent trying to figure out who you are and what you want to do with your life. I’m done with that. I know who I am and I know what to do with my life. I’ve changed SO much in the past ten years. I was a completely different person ten years ago. When I think about who I was back in 1998 I can barely understand that was actually me. Of course I’m still the same person but I’ve evolved, so to speak.
Wow this turned into quite a lenghty blog post. When I started writing I thought I’d just write a quick and short post but it’s easy to get stuck, finding more and more things to write about.
I’m going to continue watching “My So-called life” now and I should probably go to bed soon. Tomorrow I’m going to my parents to celebrate mother’s day.
So this is how I look with my new dark red (or “intensive red” as the hair dye was called) hair. At first it felt really weird but now I love it. Although I’ve been blonde for one and a half year I’ve always preferred myself with dark hair. I espescially love black hair so I conscidered that colour aswell. I decided on red though because if I dye my hair black there is no regretting it and getting another colour. That would take a lot of bleach and I won’t do that to my hair again. I’ll stay red for a while now and when I decide to change my hair colour the next time I’ll go back to black. I always do that! I’ve had every hair colour there is but I always go back to black.
Some people never change their hair but I do it all the time. After all it’s just hair. It always grows back. I don’t regret being a blonde even though the bleach ruined my hair and I had to cut off most of it. I’m not too fond of having this short hair but it will grow so it’s ok. In a couple of years perhaps I’ll have long hair again. Changing your hairstyle is such a fun way to alter your looks.
Here are photos of all the hairstyles and colours I’ve had since I was sixteen. Before I was sixteen the most extreme thing I’d done to my hair was to dye it a couple of shades darker than my natural colour and cut it shoulder lenght.
I’m so sorry for my little brother right now. Tonight his guinea pig Pärlan (swedish for “Pearl”) died. She’s been sick for a while and tonight she got worse. She died in my brothers arms a couple of hours ago. At least she died feeling loved, being held and patted. I talked to mom on the phone and told her to give my brother a big hug from me. Poor Smulan (swedish for “crumble”), my sisters guinea pig is all alone now.
Having pets is wonderful. The entire family have had pets since forever. Dogs, cats, mice, hamsters, guinea pigs, a rabbit and even a snake. I have two cats living with me and one cat living with my parents. Bettan who is living with my parents turns fifteen this summer and I’m geting quite worried about loosing her soon. I remember how horrible it was loosing my dog Puff a couple of years ago. My parents got him for me when I was two years old and he died when I was twenty, three months before his eighteenth (!) birthday. I still miss him a lot and just thinking about him brings tears to my eyes. That’s the only bad thing about pets. They die too soon. A eighteen year old dog is quite remarkable but it’s still such a short time conscidering us humans can live up to a hundred years if we get to keep our health. My parents have another dog now but he’ll die before us aswell and so will all my cats. We get to have our pets for such a short time.
Some of you wanted to see photos of my new haircut so here we go. I didn’t cut my hair this much just becuase I wanted shorter hair. Actually I didn’t want shorter hair at all. A word of warning; take it easy with the bleach or it might ruin your hair as it did mine. 10 cm of my hair is gone and I can’t say I like it. On top of that I haven’t even bleached my hair in six months so now a third of it is has my natural colour while the rest is what’s left of the bleached.
Talking with grandma on one phone while photographing myself with the other one.
Sometimes I think it would be fun to go back in time to the nineties. But when I think about living in the nineties again the thought of everything modern I’d miss is agonizing. The nineties had it’s charm but now I only miss it because it’s over. I never thought it was a amazing time to grow up in but now I do just because that time is forever gone. Being used to all the things that didn’t exist when I was a kid has made me quite spoiled and it would be weird to live without them.
When I was a kid almost nobody had a cell phone. Kids definitely did not. I remember my dads first cell. It was a HUGE Nokia which you could do nothing but call with. Text messages were introduced a couple of years later. Some people had beepers though. Do they even exist anymore btw?
When I was very little people still listened to LP records. I got my first CD player when I was ten and I thought it was SO modern!
I had a casette freestyle. There wasn’t any mp3 players back then.
DVD players didn’t exist either. I actually didn’t own one until I was in my twenties.
I still don’t own a flat screen tv but when I was a kid they weren’t even invented yet.
Not to mention the internet! I was thirteen the first time I used the internet but we didn’t have it at home until I was fifteen. And we only had a 56k modem which couldn’t be used when someone was on the phone.
Ten years ago people didn’t have any digital cameras. If 36 of your pictures turned out terrible and blurry there was nothing to do about it. Not only had you wasted a entire roll of film but you also had payed for the develop. When digital cameras were new and hot they were these big things which you put a diskette in.
Oh yeah, CD burners didn’t exist either. Only diskettes which had room for something like fifty pictures.
Speaking of technology and computers. I’ve switched browser from Firefox to Opera. I just downloaded Opera to see if my site worked in it (of course it did. valid code ftw!) and after checking out all the cool feautures I made it my primary browser. It has some neat web developement widgets and I love the way you can search any site in the main search bar just by using a keyword. In Firefox I used to have a search bar for google and one for imbd. Now I only need the main search bar because when I want to search google or Imdb I just type “g” followed by my search or “imdb” followed by my search. So neat! Another computer related improvement I’ve made is adding a dock with shortcuts to a couple of my mostly used programs and folders. It’s a always on top doc so it’s not only visible on my desktop but also when I surf the web or use any of my programs. Neat, neat, neat!
Jeez, it’s been over a week since I blogged. What can I say? Even though nothing happens time still flies. I’ve been doing all the usual things and I’ve cut my hair. I cut off all the hair damaged by my bleaches so now I have kind of a bob. I look like fucking shit but at least all of my hair is of a good quality now. I’m dying it red or black soon. First red to try it out and if I don’t like it I’ll go black again. Whatever hair colour I have I always go black again but now it’s been four years since I had that dark hair. I like the contrast of really dark hair with my pale skin.
I wish I was even paler and that I didn’t get even the slightest bit of tan. Not that you’d ever call me tanned though. The sun mostly just give me freckles and makes my skin all red and itchy. What kind of stupid fashion is this tanning anyway? People say that you look “fresh” and “healthy” the browner you are. What the…? Does that mean that I look unfresh and unhealthy, like all the time? I’m fucking blonde and a natural redhead! Fair hair and fair skin is a natural combination! If you have really dark hair of course you have darker skin but all these blondes tanned so much that their skin tone looks more like the skin of a latino? How can anyone think that’s looking good? It doesn’t look natural at all. Oh and skin cancer is fun, right? Not to mention lying on the beach doing nothing for hours just to get some colour. Yeah, I can definitely see why a tan is worth it. REALLY…
Am I the only one who thinks Dita von Teese skin colour looks SO much better than Victoria Beckham’s? Not that Victoria ever looks better than anyone and Dita ever looks uglier than anyone but ignore that fact and just focus on the tan vs no tan.
So, here it is. My brand new layout. I don’t know if I like it or not. I know I can do way better than this but I kinda rushed this layout just to get something up. I needed a change and here it is. And it’s white! And it even have some red, whoa! Still pretty standard Angelica though. Black, white, grey and one more colour. Pretty much like the way I dress.
Anyway, I need to hop into the shower now and then run to the grocery store to buy dinner.
Let me know what you think about the layout.
And meet my new affiliate Becky!
I’m changing my whole site into XHTML Strict. All I have to do is change the doctype on every page because my site is already coded in Strict. I’ve just kept the doctype Transitional because of a couple of rotations which aren’t valid in Strict. I decided to screw those rotations though since everything but those codes are valid strict! I’ve been writing and complaing about this before so you’re all probably sick of hearing about my whining about stupid non-valid codes. But it’s so annoying! Why do people keep making those old-fashioned codes? Probably because 99% of all the sites on the internet are invalid. Yeah, that’s the actual number! Like validating your site is that hard. A lot of people probaby don’t know about validation though. I didn’t a couple of years ago and back then my code was a mess.
It’s funny. Just yesterday I wrote about having no motivation to work on my site and today I’m so motivated! Changing the doctype on every page is tideous though since my site consists of about 2000 php-documents. Most of those files are part of my gallery which I also need to fix. I have lots of old photo blogs from back when my site was in swedish which I need to translate and re-code before I incorporate them with the site. I hate this kind of non creative site work. It’s basicly all delete, copy, paste, save, upload and repeat x 2000.
I really want to get started on a new layout too but I still don’t know what I want it to look like. Gah, it’s so annoying! But at least now I have motivation so I’ll at least start looking for photos and brushes to use today.
EDIT: My site is once again valid XHTML 2.0 Strict. It took me three hours to change the doctype of all the 2000 files but now it’s done. Phew. Now I need a smoke and dinner. I didn’t allow myself to either smoke or eat until I was done with this. I can be very disciplined.
EDIT 2: Does anyone know a good clickable smilies script? I’ve tried the wordpress plugins wp grins and custom smilies but I can’t get neither of them to work so I thougth I’d try a regular script instead of a plugin. But of course a plugin works aswell if you know one except for those I mentioned. Any advice would be very apprechiated!
EDIT 3: I’m in schock! I sometimes google “Whirlwind” to see how high my site ranks among other search results and I’m always one of the top results but not today! My old site adress is search result number five but whirlwind.nu isn’t on page one, two, three, four or five! What’s wrong! I’ve had a ranking as high as number two!
I’m spending the night at home. That’s weird. I never spend friday nights at home, unless there’s a party at saturday, which there isn’t this week. I just didn’t feel like going out tonight. Very weird. But seriously, I should not only drink less, I should drink less often aswell. And I don’t have much money either so wasting my last couple of hundred kronor on booze feels like a bad idea. I need to learn how to save money because the next month I will have to save pretty much everything I have left after paying the bills and buying food. Why? Because the Hultsfred festival takes place three weeks after I get mays money and one week before I get junes money. The thing is that I’m always broke one week before payday and I can’t be when I’m going to the festival! Fortunately I at least don’t have to buy a ticket. Thank god for that.
Changing subject, I’m so sick of this layout! I love it but it’s been up for more than seven months so it’s time for a change. I definitely want something less black. I’m even thinking of trying to make something a bit colourful. I probably won’t be able to though because everything I create ends up having no more than four colours of which three are black, white and gray. I have tons of other site-related things to fix too but I don’t have the energy or inspiration. Just blogging and updating my galleries takes enough time and energy. I have no motivation.
I’ve removed a lot of my affiliates but I also have two new ones! Meet Olivia and Ravencroft! I’m also accepting new affiliates so if you’re interested apply here.