“We must make an idol of our fear and that idol we shall call god.”
If a religious person sat down and had a long talk about life with me he/she would say that what I need in my life is god’s love. That it would heal me and fill my life with meaning and happiness. That may be true, but I don’t want to believe in god. I have this black hole of fear inside me. I fear death and the nothingness I believe follows and I fear that my life will be a waste. If I believed in god I probably wouldn’t fear death as much and I probably would feel that my life is meaningful because god has a plan for me. But I don’t want to believe in god because god is a imaginary friend. A story made up to relieve our fear of the unknown. A being created to make us feel that our existance has a meaning, a point, a reason.
I don’t think my existance has a reason. I don’t believe I have a destiny. I think our entire existence is a random coincidence. We’re born, we live, we die. We fill our lives with whatever we want to and whatever randomly passes us by. And then we die and we’re gone. And that’s it. It’s a depressing thought but I don’t see why it shouldn’t be like that. What proof do we have of a god? A godess? A higher power? Just look at how many religions there are. Which one is the right one? Which one grant you a place in eternity? Religions are fairytales made up by scared people all over the world. Different parts of the world have different fairytales, different gods. It’s like folk lore. Stories made up to explain things we don’t understand. What’s the difference between religion and folk lore? There aren’t many people who believe in folk lore anymore but the world is packed with religious people. Because religions offer a answear to the greatest fear of mankind; death. Religions offer comforting answears to what happens to us when we die.
I understand why people turn to religion. I’m also scared of death but I’m not going to turn to fairytales to feel comfort. I’m not really a logical and down to earth person but I don’t fall for anything. Give me proof of god’s existence and I’ll believe you. Religioius people would say that you don’t need any proof, that I just have to feel it in my heart or whatever. Come again? Why on earth should I read some old book about miracles and actually accept it as the truth about life and death? Why? And why should your faith be the right one? How do you choose between all the religions out there? Of which none has any proof that anything they talk about actually is real.
I’m very scared of death. If I sit down and really think about it. How it would be to be forever gone without even the ability to think, to even know that I’m gone. The very thougth of it terrifies me. Still I don’t turn to god because god isn’t logic. To me it’s like doing drugs because life is boring. You create an alternative world which no matter how cool it is still isn’t real. That’s god to me. We create our gods to fill those dark places of our souls and sure, our gods fill their purpose, but they’re still not real. I’m not saying I’m sure there isn’t a god. I’m just saying I don’t believe there is one. And that I don’t want to believe there is one either. I’d feel stupid kneeling down in a church praying to a character from a book written 2000 years ago. Wouldn’t you? Why don’t you?
“We must make an idol of our fear and that idol we shall call god.”
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Hmm. Now I agree with the statement. I fully believe in God – he’s not an imaginary friend. He’s helped me and been there in so many ways its ridiculous. I don’t know if I ever feared death in the past but I certainly don’t right now. When I die, I know exactly what will happen to me. If the world ended tomorrow or I was hit by a truck or what have you, I wouldn’t be sad about it.. only a little for my family but I wuold know exactly where I was going.
I don’t kneel down in church. I just pray to myself. I don’t feel stupid at all. What I think is stupid is evolution. If we evolved from Apes..then why are there still apes?
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You have a point there..:)
it seems like a lot of people aren’t. *cough cough* like my sister *cough* you’re lucky you don’t hear that much about them, i can’t go anywhere or watch tv without seeing them at least once. its so lame.
i dont know what else to use other than image maps, really. which is why im still using it!
well my proof of God is all the miracles that have happened to me, and i believe that it is God’s love that has helped me through tough times. but, to each her own, right?
I feel the same way as you — we are simply too insignificant in the world, in the universe. And I can’t believe in this “God” religious people keep on blabbering about in their beloved Bible stories. If God was so powerful, how come he doesn’t help his children survive in the world? I mean, with Africa dying and all and experiencing genocide in Darfur, and republican countires like China with their one-child rules, what do we have as evidence to believe in a higher being?
I, however, take the logical approach to life; we consume, live for a considerably short amount of time, and then die. What do I care if a person suddenly dies of pneumonia downtown?? I don’t even know them.
Though, then this all leads to my own pessimistic, cynical views on life itself and it would be pointless to just ramble on about this for another three pages.
So I end here, and I bid you farewell! =D
(in reply to Kristi’s comment)
We were not “evolved from Apes”, they just look similar to us. And evolution is “stupid”. It’s how scientists tell us where humans actually derive from, like from single-celled organisms who have surivived through the millions of years the Earth was alive. Please don’t talk about something you don’t fully comprehend because your teachers did not (if at all) teach you correctly about evolution in Biology class.
I agree with you, well half way… I’m not sure if I believe in them exactly, religious spirits that is. But i agree with what your saying, I think life is one big ass random thing as well… and then you die.
I dont know I want to be proven wrong, I’m like 50/50% on the whole situation, I want to believe but then i kind of don’t because for me, there isnt enough proof besides what some man wrote
Wow, you think the same boat as me! And you even explained it better.
Okay, if they say “God” created the world and all the people, then who created “God” and the people that created “God” and such. There had to be someone or something there to create this so called “God”. They can’t even do that.
Come on, the Christianity religion has its own branches in it. Protestant, Catholic, Baptist, Methodist….even people within the same religion can’t agree on such a BS story.
The creation of all these religions is like as if it was the real and first true World War among people who can’t agree on a story, with Christianity trying to build the biggest army for bragging rights. *sighs* Now that’s just how I see this religion junk. I’m pretty open-minded to people who choose to follow a religion. They don’t push their beliefs on me and vise versa for me. I just live my life the way I want to.
I’m not religious at all but I’m very interested in the Wiccan religion. I find nature to be the most powerful thing on earth. I believe it created the world and I believe it will end the world. Evolution etc … thats what I believe in. Something real which I can see and touch. Not something mythological that supposedly exists inside of us.
I like the old saying:
Man created God and then said that God created man
However, I think if a person believes in something then to them it is real and we should all respect that.
Nice blog, I enjoyed reading it.
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what a blog. i agree with you. i, myself, am afraid of death. i’m scared of my own death, but moreso of the ones i love. that’s probably one of my greatest fears is someone close to me dying. i know we are born alone and ultimately die that way, but geeze. it is a scary concept. kudos to you for sticking up for what you believe, or what you don’t for that matter. if only more people out there held strong to their convictions, we might be living in a different world. all i know is, i do believe in the goddess and that when my time comes and i’m at that crossroad, i’ll be shone the way. that’s my belief and opinon though.. and i’m a firm believer in not pushing your ideals or anything else on someone.
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hi.. nice philosophical/anti-philosophical post. what would it be worth to you to be proven wrong?
the bible = a book of mythical stories supposedly written CENTURIES after the man called christ walked the earth. Well, we all know how much stories are bended and changed randomly by people … so yeah, i don’t want to beleive in something that other people made up as entertainment to their kids and then put it in a book.
i don’t have an opinion about death. I never thought much about it. i’d be more afraid of who i leave behind if i die rather than what happens to me. I really hope to be a wandering spirit, i’m too attached to my surroundings