A lot of people think about why they’re here on earth and what’s their purpose in life. I never do that. I don’t believe my life has a purpose, that I have some sort of destiny awaiting me. I don’t think I was put on this earth for any particular reason and I don’t think life has some grand meaning. “The meaning of life”, you know. I don’t care about that. I’m just here.
What I do think about is how I need my life to be meaningful, to me. How I want to fill my life with wonderful moments and how I want to be happy. To me that’s the meaning of life. Simply to be happy and to enjoy my time here on earth. I’m a searcher. I search for something to fill me, complete me and make my life feel wonderful. It could be a place, something to do, a realization, whatever. We all need something. And I don’t know what I need. I want to move, again. Because I keep thinking that maybe this time around I’ll find a place where I can be happy. I’ve moved and totally changed my life twice and sure, thanks to that I’ve got to see new places, meet new people and experience new things. But did I find my place in the world? Did I find that true happiness? No. But I’m hoping that maybe, maybe this time I will.
I look for happiness in different places and different things to do but perhaps I should look inside myself. I’m not sure how to do that though. I don’t think I can because I happen to be a very cynical person. I think the happiest people are those who don’t search the world for trills but just like their surroundings. Those who don’t need grandeur but just enjoy the moment and the small things in life. How could I become like that? I don’t think I can because I’ve never been like that. I’m a dreamer and I always want something different. I always look for something more.
A while ago I came across a blog post where the author asked the question “If you were to describe yourself with six words, what would those words be?”. My six words are “A constant search for something more”. That’s me. Never content, always looking for something better, more exciting, more fulfilling.
And I haven’t found it yet. I’m twenty-five and I’ve never liked my life. It’s quite sad. And seeing how I work perhaps I never will.
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You know I find your opinion on God and life very interesting. I couldn’t disagree more to be honest, but that’s ok. I find happiness in knowing that I have a God that loves me. A God that died for me to save my soul. I have been given a gift I don’t deserve. I’ve been shown unmerited favor and grace in my life. I think we all have moments when we feel discontented with our lives. I know I am in a time in my life right now where I am going through some MAJOR life changes and it is hard, but exciting. I know that true happiness is not within myself, but through knowing that I have a Lord and Savior that chose me as one of his own before the very foundation of the world. Well, I am going to step off of my soapbox for tonight.
I love your heart background and the colors you’ve chosen for this layout. Well, I do wish the best for you and I hope that you can find the happiness you are searching for. Take care now, aloha.
i feel the same way. i’m not contented with the way things are. i always try to amuse myself, but in the end, i’m still sad.
maybe, we could gain some happiness if we see things the other way. Power of the mind. i’m trying my best on that.
We are too young to be contented, I believe that life has a lot in store for us. All it asks of us is a little patience.
Hope you’ll find happiness soon.
I loved your post! And please don’t take this the wrong way, but you so reminded me that I am happy that I am NOT 25! :-)
As a 49 3/4 old fart, I’ve ‘been there, done that’ in regards to the angst about not liking my life. Always trying to go ‘some place else’ to find…(fill in the blank) happiness, contentment, meaning, yada yada
Not that you’re asking, but I will share with you my secret. Yes, it did mean traveling inside and facing the demons. I wanted adventure, so I climbed the Mt.Everest of my insecurities. I went scuba diving in the Pacific Ocean searching for “why in the heck am I so bad at relationships? I, too, was an explorer…so I search for the beginning of my family dysfunctions and learned how/why I chose to stay tethered to that string of DNA.
Yes, travel, adventure, exploration…all hard work. But I can say from personal experience that having successfully completed all the “trips”, the journey has allowed each decade of my life to be more fulfilling, loving, and meaningful than the last. And I can’t wait to skydive into my 50s!
So keep breathing. You are exactly where you are suppose to be. Your 20s are, well, your 20s. That decade is suppose to be confusing, yet fun! :-)
(I’ll take my walker and go away now…)
take care,
Louise Lewis, author
No Experts Needed: The Meaning of Life According to You!
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I think my hearts in London or New York, but I could get there in a few years and decide that their not the right places for me.
I think I’m like you. I’m a dreamer. I always want something more. I have to many dreams, it would be impossible to do them all. Especially as there all so different, and not related to each other.
I think you will find what you’ve been looking for eventually.
Hello affie
i’ve changed my layour since that nature one was a bit….not my type really since i dont perticually like pink,
comment on my new layout?
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I believe that the meaning of life is also to enjoy it and be happy, but if you are always wanting and searching then how can you possibly enjoy it and be happy. So I think your meanings contradict each other, but I agree that that is no great meaning.
Not much you can ever do about that, everyone is always waiting for things to change, Until they do we just plod along content with life, but wishing for more. I don’t know who said it, but it was said that if you are always waiting for tomorrow you’ll never realize that today is the tomorrow you hoped for yesterday.
This is a great post. I admire you!
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My goal in life is to be happy also. I try to make sure that I’m always having fun. I don’t think moving around all the time would be something that would cause me to be happy. I like being settled and exploring the surroundings that are in my neighbourhood.
I totally agree with you! It needs to be fulfilling for yourself, not for others, so what’s the point of asking yourself the question. My purpose in life is just to become happy too.
I think I’m a little bit of both, which is really satisfying. In one way I am perfectly happy being here but my dreams are to move to the US, that would make me really happy and I know that, but I just know it isn’t going to happen, which doesn’t really make me any less sad.
I think you will sort things out, everyone does, something will always make you happy…
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Love katie x
Many people have lived their lives and not enjoyed it for one reason or another. I guess we (as humans) spend so much time trying to survive in this world that we forget to appreciate the things we do have and therefore giving up a chance to be happy. Maybe you should try to take a good look at the things around you and view them differently.
Finding your place in life is harder then most people expect. Just don’t give up. Happiness is hard to find; so when you find it hold on for dear life. You are who you are. Cherish every moment.
I occasionally think about the whole “Meaning of life”. But I try not to think about it to hard because then I start thinking about death. And I am really sensitive when it comes to things like that.
And trust me you will eventually find something that you like about your life. I know I’m not that old so what do I know? Well I have hope! So you must have hope too.
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