Monthly Archives: October 2008
Misantrophy is for the realistic idealist

People react so funny when I say that I think humanity should be extinct. Yes, we should all die. There should be no humans on the planet.

When I say things like that people go “Oh but not everyone are bad you know”! Yeah, not everyone are bad. But I am and you who’s reading this probably is too.

I do small things like recycle and donate money to charity every month but I’m still bad for the planet. I live in a apartment full of things created in factories polluting the nature. I ride with my dad in his car to work every week and buy food that’s been shipped for days in trucks polluting the air even more. I have a lot of electrial things and I bet not all my electricity is nice to the environment. I probably own some make-up that’s been tested on animals. I most definitely own clothes and furniture that’s been created under conditions which are not only bad for the environment but also for the people working with it.  I know I’m a bad person. But so are you. If you live in a cottage in the forest without electricity and grow all your food in your garden, then you’re a good person.

In Sweden we hunt wild animals so they won’t over-populate. That means so they won’t eat our farm animals which we make money from or run over roads and get hit by our cars so that we might get hurt. Who the fuck are we to decide over such things?! We’re the most overpopulated specie of all and no other specie has done so much damage to the planet as we have! For the greater good of the planet we should all disappear from the face of earth.

I don’t hate people but our society makes me sad. I’m misantrophic because I see us for what we are and that hurts. How we treat animals, how we treat eachother, how we’re so extremely destructive. I want to change so much but I’m just one little person. If we all decided to change our ways this world could be good. But that won’t happen. Ever. It makes me despair.

Alas, life.

The downside with having people actually following my blog is that it makes me pressure myself to always write something interesting. And quite frankly my life isn’t interesting at all. I keep wondering wether people will like what I write or not and it’s annoying. After all it’s my life and my blog and if people don’t care about what I’m writing then that should be fine. But I’m like this. I always have to be really good at everything I do and when it comes to blogging that means I have to write interesting things so I’ll get many visitors and comments. It’s stupid.

I remember back when I blogged at skunk.nu and there wasn’t even a comment function. I blogged almost every day for three years and during all that time I never knew if people actually read what I wrote. I just wrote for myself and since I never expected anyone to actually read it I wrote about everything and nothing. It was pathetic, whiny and full of self pity but at least it was for me and nobody else. I never thought “no, I can’t write that because people will find that story boring”.

But even if I decide not to care about what others think of this blog I still have nothing to write about. Because my life really is boring. It’s even boring to write about! I mean, what can I say about today? I went to work. I worked. I went to the grocery store with dad. I went home and now I’m sitting in front of the computer. Sometimes my life is fun but right now it’s very slow.

Halloween costume

First I’d like to thank everyone who gave me tips on what to wear on Halloween. I apprechiate it, even though I won’t follow any of your advices. ;)

I’m going as 80′s Siouxsie Sioux, lead singer of “Siouxsie and the Banshees”! It’ll be a look easy to pull off. Already got the clothes, already got the black hair. All I need to do is tease my hair and do her classic make-up.

siouxsie sioux

AND meet my new affiliates Emme and Shannon!
+ Sandra who’s now advertising here:
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+ Kat who I’ve done a link exchange with.

Halloween costume

I have one week to come up with a Halloween costume and I haven’t got a clue what to wear! Give me some suggestions please! Oh, and I have no budget whatsoever so I just have to use what I allready have. I do have a lot of fun clothes though so maybe that won’t be a problem. But still, suggestions please!

Empty and alone!

I just watched the last episode of “Buffy the Vampire Slayer” and as usual after watching the final episode of a show I feel kinda empty and lonely. I won’t be seeing Buffy, Spike, Giles, Xander, Willow, Anya or Dawn again. Unless I start reading the Season 8 graphic novels which continue where the tv-series season 7 left off. I could also watch the spin-off “Angel” if it weren’t for the fact that I never found him interesting. He’s too melancholic. Spike on the other hand is interesting. Not to mention hot. I mean… a brittish punk vampire! You can’t go wrong with that! If I were Buffy I’d definitely choose Spike over emo-Angel.

So I’ve been watching a lot of Buffy lately.  I started watching season 1 two months ago. During the past eight weeks I’ve watched 144 episodes, which took me 105 hours. That’s an average of watching two and a half episodes a day. This might seem like a lot of Buffy but this is tv for me. There’s nothing good on the actual tv so I mostly watch movies and old tv-shows on my computer instead. Now I need to find something new to watch. Anyone got any suggestions? No sitcoms please.

I was tagged by Tiniwini. Here’s eight facts about me:

1. I’m not romantic, at all. I prefer a rock concert over a romantic candle-lit dinner and I’d rather get a bottle of vodka than a bouquet of red roses.

2. I’m of swedish, finnish and sami heritage. Sami are kind of the native people of Scandinavia with a nomad culture much like the indians.

3. I only speak swedish and english but I’ve studied french and sign language.

4. My favourite tea is rubarb and cream.

5. I don’t want to be famous. I want to be a succesful writer but if I were I wouldn’t want to be on tv or be interviewed.

6. Cynism and misantrophy saves me from feeling too much pain when I look at the world. It’s easier to look down on the world and people than feeling sad because our society is fucked up and full of evil.

7. If I had a kid that one day told me he/she was gay that wouldn’t bother me. However if my kid told me he/she was a moderat (right-wing political party) I’d be very disappointed! Gay is just about who you fall in love with but being right-wing is being selfish and I wouldn’t want my kid to be a selfish capitalist.

8. I think crocs are the ugliest shoes ever made and I don’t understands how grown up people can walk around in colourful plastic shoes.

And I tag… everyone who want’s to be tagged since I don’t want to force this on anyone.

The depressing time of the year

Today’s been blah. A rainy, dull and depressing day. I’m sick of every aspect of my life. I think it’s the time of the year that’s affecting me this way. I always get more or less blue every autumn because of the darkness and general dying of everything beautiful in nature. There’s nothing even remotely nice about fall. The world turns grey and brown, cold and dark. All the colours of the summer fade and even if the sun shine it’s not warm. I feel like everything around me is dying and my mood drops and stays low until April.

This is one reason behind my boredom which I wrote about in my previous entry. Of course I don’t want to go out when the world outside my window is all grey and cold. So I stay inside and become terribly bored. I’ve decided on my new hobby though. A few people recommended knitting so I’m going to try that out. I’ll start with something easy. Probably a hat. Wish me luck!

Indoor hobbies

I’m in a weird place right now. I’m bored with my routines and yet I don’t really feel like doing anything or seeing anyone. I’m not really up for leaving my apartment unless I have to but I do need something new to do. A hobby. A new hobby which doesn’t force me to see anyone or go out. Kind of like all my hobbies. Except for parties and such.

I paint, I write, I read, I sew, I have this site and I occasionaly play computer games. What more hobbies are there that are best done in solitude? I’ve thought of scrapbooking but that’s not really my thing. I thought about Feng Shui aswell but I’m not too fond of the idea that mystical energy forces should be what decides where my furniture should be placed. Origami seems too dull and I wouldn’t know what to do with my paper figures anyway. I’m not a fan of cooking. I can’t do any carpentry in my apartment. I’m not into photography. Making jewelry is fun, for ten minutes. I tried wicca with tarot cards and all that when I was a teenager but I’m too sceptical for such things nowadays.

What more is there?!

Give me tips of fun indoor hobbies! Preferably creative ones. I’m an artist!

AND meet my newest affiliate Ashlie!

The wonderful world of websites and blogs. Not a expert guide but still some kind of guide

My life is boring so I can’t really write about what I’ve been up to. It would go something like this: “Work, school, cleaning, laundry, home work, watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, reading”. And there it is. My week. So let’s just leave that sad subject and move on. I’ve been thinking about what to blog about for days and just a minute ago I finally got an idea. I’ve been webdesigning for nine years and blogging for eight so I know some stuff about that. So here’s a tip blog.

The wonderful world of websites and blogs. Not a expert guide but still some kind of guide.

The Making
1. I know a lot of people use dreamweaver and similar programs but I don’t reccomend it. If you want to understand your code you should try to code it by hand. It’s not that hard to learn. I promise!

2. Validate your site. Take the time to check if your code is correct with a validator. There are several different browsers to choose from today. Some of them display uncorrectly coded sites correctly but others are more picky. Explorer tend to show the most terribly coded site correctly while Firefox and Opera wants you to actually use correct code. Why? Well why would you want to use correct spelling and grammar? Becuase a language has rules and so does HTML.
You can validate your HTML here and your CSS here.

3. Identify your target group and adjust your site according to it. If I for example were to write a really serious blog about art history I wouldn’t use this layout. I’d make a more toned down and “serious” layout. Not one featuring Emilie Atumn, crows and lots of hearts.

4. Make your site user-friendly. If you have a menu with links to other parts of your site make sure that menu is clearly visible. My site could definitely be more user-friendly. For example I have way too much stuff in my left menu making it look cluttered and I use a way too small font. I think it looks pretty. But it’s not user-friendly.

5. No background music! Of course you think your taste in music is just greeeat but not everyone will agree with you. It’s annoying visiting a site playing some nasty music you hate. Espescially if you’re listening to your own music in Winamp.

Getting your site online
Got no money? Try getting hosted. There are lots of people offering hosting for free. What I did was getting hosted for free and then buying a domain name. I “lived” at iskall.nu/~carnelian but I had my domain name www.whirlwind.nu which worked as a redirecting adress.

Getting visitors
Make yourself known to the world! You can’t just sit around and wait for people to discover your blog. Visit other peoples sites and leave comments, do link exchanges, join rotations, join site rankings, join commenting communities. Let people know you’re out there!

Choosing a blog tool
If you have a personal site with a blog you might want people to be able to comment you. I’ve tried three different blog/commenting tools.

1. Haloscan. If you prefer to code your blog by yourself I reccomend Haloscan which is a commenting tool. With one line of code you place a link which opens a small pop-up window where people can leave you comments. My personal opinion on Haloscan is that it’s great if you want to do as much of your coding as possible by yourself. The pop-up is annoying though.

2. CuteNews. If you want more than a commenting tool you could try CuteNews. With cutenews you log into the cutenews site and blog from there. No manual blog coding and FTP:ing needed. And it has a categories feature. Cutenews is kind of a light version of WordPress. Less advanced but also with less functions. What’s great about it is that’s it easy to understand.

3. WordPress is a complete blog management tool. With it you can create archives, categories, tags, comments and lots more. You log into your WP control panel and blog from there. No manual blog coding or FTP:ing needed. The downside of WordPress is that it’s quite hard to grasp at first. You need quite good coding skills to use it. Or LOTS of time. Once it’s up and running it’s smooth and fast though. I have to admit that I hated it to begin with and still don’t really love it but I’m used to it now. I think it’s too automatized but if you like things easy (once it’s up and running) WordPress is the thing for you.

Visit my new affiliates Gel, Sophie and Nova!

My new dining table

Yesterday I bought a gorgeous dining table at the second hand store I work at. It’s a black glass table with a steel frame with four chairs. It only costed me 500 SEK (50 €)! Gorgeous or what?

dining table

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