So it’s been a while since my last update. I’m not as blue now as I was when I wrote my previous post. I returned to life shortly after that and things are rolling again. I haven’t updated for so long since absolutely nothing out of the ordinary has been going on. And quite frankly the ordinary isn’t very exciting.

Today I did the national maths test. It’s comparable to the american finals. It’s basicly a test covering the entire course I’ve taken. I think it went well. By well I of course mean that I might have passed. An actual good grade is just not something I expect from myself in maths. You know how a lot of people are either good at creative things like languages and art or so called “logical” things like maths, science and such. It’s about different brain halfs being dominant. I’m good at languages and art but maths, chemistry, physics and such are arch nemesises of mine. If I pass my maths course I’ll be as happy as most people would be if they got an A.

Christmas is approaching and it doesn’t feel like it. I miss the christmas magic of my childhood. I don’t know what’s changed because I still love it but it’s not as glittering, magic and wonderful as it used to be. I guess that’s partly because I’m now a part of making it happen. When I was a kid christmas was all about getting. My parents put up the christmas tree the night before christmas and when I woke up it was just there. And when I was a kid I did buy presents but not many or expensive. I got tons of gifts though. Now I buy lots of presents to other people. I make christmas happen now. When I was a kid the grown ups made it happen for me. I didn’t have to plan anything. Everything was just there and all I had to do was to be there. A surprise party is always more exciting than a party you’ve planned yourself, you know?

I’m done with my christmas shopping and I’m posting christmas cards tomorrow. All left to do is to put up some decorations but I don’t do that until the day before christmas. I’m not really fond of christmas decorations. At least not in my own home. They don’t match the rest of my stuff! I still put them up but I take them down after a week. If I want to look at decorations I can go to my parents house. They take decorations very seriously. The only thing I want is a christmas tree. A black one which I can decorate in silver and blue. Unfortunately I can’t have one because of my youngest cat. He always breaks and plays with all my stuff and I have a feeling he’d just love a christmas tree. To climb in. To play with. To trash. To tip over.

Anyway, I’m gonna see if there’s anything good on tv tonight. No pub for me tonight. I’m hanging with my friends tomorrow instead.