In a couple of weeks the thrift store I work at shuts down. It’s done. Finito. Over. I don’t get my paycheck from the store since this is kind of like a “praktikplats”. I guess the closest translation for that would be internship but it’s less pretentious than that. I’m gonna try to find a new internship now but I’m sad to leave my current job. I’ve pretty much been able to do what I want with the store and I don’t think I’ll get that kind of responsibility somewhere else.
Obviously this has made me think a lot about my future and sometimes I feel like I’ve blown it. I could have got so much better grades in high school but I didn’t study hard enough and now I can’t get into any school. It’s not like I want to be a doctor but whatever I want to do there will be people with better grades than mine. It’s just such a shame because I’m so much smarter than what those grades tell you. I just didn’t care enough about school to do my best.
I’d probably still get into a lot of schools because my grades aren’t terrible. Just average. Unfortunately nothing but the best have ever been good enough for me. It’s probably not a good characteristic of mine but I’m very competative and I really, really hate people doing better than me.
I’m thinking about perhaps going back to school. Probably some kind of distance education but it’s too late to apply to the courses starting this fall. Perhaps next year I could try to get into some distance education course in web design. It’s been a hobby of mine for ten years now and of all the things I can imagine working with web design is what I’d prefer.
Of course what I really want to do is travel the world for a year or so. Unfortunately that’s impossible since what I could save up to in a year would be no more than perhaps a month of really low budget traveling. And that’s a huge perhaps seeing I’m terrible with money. Relisticly three days at the medieval week in Visby is what I get.
I don’t think money is the most important things in life but right now I really wish I was rich. Even though money per se wouldn’t make me happy at least it would give me the opportunty to pursue things that could make me happy.
My future is very unclear right now. I have no idea where I’m going. I feel like I’m jumping a springboard into the unknown.
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Sounds to me like you don’t really have a goal and that’s why you can’t really think of what you are going to do. You don’t need a specific goal, but some kind of a direction maybe?
And stop looking at what other people have, you need no one to compare yourself to. (that sounds like some support group, we love you Angelica).
So what if you didn’t do good at school, most of the stuff there was useless anyway, I bet you’re much better than all those ‘smart good grade kids’. were.
Hey Angela! Man I feel lost too and I’m already in school. Such a predicament eh? But for you I say go for it. Who cares if you didn’t have super excellent grades in high school, college or uni is all that matters when applying for a job. And the hard work. As I see it, no matter how smart you are, it all boils down to hard work. My uncle started off as a cargo guy and now he’s the head of their Accounting division (or special finances or whatever, I don’t know about these lolz) and he is being sent to places all over the world. I visited him last April and he was doing well with his family. But of course he used the education or what he learnt in college as stepping stones but he told me he learned more from working and experiencing.
So go for it Angela! :p hehee It’s sad to leave there… but the store closing could mean a great opportunity to try something else
I think that’s a really cool idea about going back to school. Personally, I agree with the comments here, I bet you are much smarter and also it is about how much effort and hard work you put in.
That really sucks though that the place where you work is closing down, though. I hope you find another job soon!
Good luck with the school stuff!
päivien viemää, heter det tydligen. Frågade Julia.
Betyder typ ‘dragen av dagarna’. lol!
Sverige är, för en gångs skull, bäst på namnet.
Jojo, men nu dröjer det ju ett tag för mig.
Finns säkert kurser i höst som inte är fullsatta.
Om det är någon särskild du vill gå är det bara att kontakta institutionen och kolla om det går att smita in.
Damn, all small stores are closing down these days… The bookstore I worked in last summer closed down right after I left, and it was really sad.
It sounds like you’re interested in going back to school though, so you should totally do it! Worst that could happen is you decide you do’nt like it and leave…
Awww, I’m sorry you’re losing your job. Thank you for this post though, I’m about to start high school and now I’m gonna try harder not to mess it up. I can be competitive too but nobody really knows it since I mostly swallow it and keep it to myself.
Why not study french in france, or english in england? I know of so many people who’s gone to Japan to study japanese right after highschool, and it seems pretty easy to get it. I wish I could do that but I havent even graduated from highschool so I can’t
your lucky that you have, many more opportunities for you:)
I think that grades don’t really define a person nor does it imply the extent of what we can actually do.. or something like that, anyway. I’m starting off college next week but even now I’m not sure if I chose the right course, lol. No idea what I really want to do after graduation. No clear goal too D:
It’s too bad you lost your job because of the store closing down. You say you love web designing so I think you should push through with the web design course. Anyhoo, I hope you’d find a new job you’ll be comfortable with soon
Good luck deciding what you want to do!