The amount of snow where I live is insane. In many parts of southern Sweden there hasn’t been this much snow for decades. My personal experience is that I haven’t seen this much snow in ten years, since I moved from the northern part of the country to the south. In the north this weather is normal and something to expect but not where I live. The snow fell more than two months ago and it has stayed ever since. Usually there’s snow which melts away, then new snow falls, which also melts away, repeated through the winter. Not this year though. The snow fell in December and has stayed ever since and what barely covered the grass two months ago has turned almost waist deep in the past two months. Well at least for me and my 161 cm.
Here’s me earlier today in my parents front yard.
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While watching Survivors (British TV-series about a group of people who survive a virus which kills most of mankind) I thought about how I’d manage in a world like that. A world without all the conveniences we are used to. I quickly realized I wouldn’t do too well because none of my talents are useful when it comes to survival. I know nothing about growing food. Hell, I can’t even cook it! When it comes to building things I’m pretty clueless as well unless you count the fact that I can build small pretty tables, but I really don’t see how that would be useful. I can’t handle mechanics either. I know nothing of how they work and don’t even know how to change a tire. Actually I don’t even know how to drive a car. I’ll just have to hope there won’t be a disaster killing most of the world’s population, leaving me to fend for myself since I wouldn’t do well at all.
It’s weird to think that we know so much about so many things but because of all our technology we’ve forgotten some of the most basic things. Just think about what would happen if we took away all grocery stores. We’d starve because we don’t know how to grow or hunt our food. Or take away all stores selling clothes. Even if some of us knows how to sew there aren’t many who can make the fabrics or the thread.
If there ever was a disaster ending world as we know it people like me – like us – wouldn’t be the one who survived. Tribes in Africa living in huts would stand a greater chance because they already live without technology.
Anyway, moving on to something entirely different, you might wonder why I haven’t blogged in ten days. Actually the reason to that is pretty simple. I just haven’t felt like it. Uninspiration (yeah I know that’s not a real word) stopped by to say hello, killing my muse. She’s back now though, I think. We’ll just have to wait and see.
This is my favourite photo of myself – ever. I look like a friggin model in this photo and that’s not a look I usually convey!
I miss the pink hair I had back in 2006 but I won’t dye it that colour again. Extreme colours needs so much pre-bleaching that it just ruins my hair.
Speaking of hair colours. After almost two years of dying my hair black I’m getting a bit sick of it. I think black suits me best and I love the colour but I like change. Since I’ve been growing my hair long for almost two years now and plan on growing it even longer I can’t change my hair style so what has to change is the colour. There’s a problem though. My hair is about as dark as it gets so dying it another colour really won’t do much good. My reddish blonde roots will change colour but that’s it. There’s of course bleach but there’s no way in hell I’m doing that to my hair again. That leaves the option to grow out my natural hair colour and then dye it but that would take like three years. Oh well I guess I’ll have to stick with black. Or perhaps I could just buy some clip-in hair extension of a interesting colour and wear once in a while. That way at least part of my hair could be pink again – without bleach.
I love CSN. Oh my god how I love CSN today.
CSN is short for Centrala studienämnden which translates to National Board of Student Aid. Basically it’s a governmental board which handles student benefits and student loans. I go to college and get money from CSN. Most of the money is a student loan but some of it is student benefits which I don’t have to pay back.
Anyway, I’ve had major problems with my student loan. First I wasn’t getting any money at all, then I got money but would have to pay back part of it and then all of a sudden I find out I get to keep all the extra money I got. I’m not going to go into details about how and why since it’s all very complicated but basically CSN made a mistake and paid me more money than I should have and since the mistake was theirs and not mine I get to keep the money. Of course most of it is loan money which I still have to pay back one day when I’m finished with college but it’s still great since there’s a limit on how much money you can get from them each month and this means that I got a double income for January. It was quite a turn of events after all the trouble I’ve had with them these past months. So, that’s why I love CSN today.
I’m going to save part of my extra money for summer and with the rest I bought a laptop. This one to be exact. Lovely!
I shouldn’t complain so much. My life is good and I’m not really poor. By Swedish standards I kinda am but not compared to the poor people in the rest of the world. I’m just a spoiled western European woman who’ve always had it all. By having it all I mean a house to live in, food on my plate, clothes, running water, electricity plus all the modern things we don’t really need but take for granted. I shouldn’t complain so much and neither should you because if you’re reading this you have access to a computer and internet and with that obviously electricity which means you most likely also have it all.
So many people in the world live so much harder lives than you and me. So many doesn’t have a home of their own or food on their plates. We should think about that more often and feel lucky, because we are. I need to think about that more often.
Not only do I have the material things. I also have a loving family and the chance to get an education. I’m blessed. In so many ways.
I finally got my student loan money and to celebrate I did some shopping at www.vampfangs.com. This is what I bought:
Blood Vial Amphora Pendant
Morbid Spooky Bottle Covers
Can you say COOL AS FUCK?! Now I just need to buy a couple of cheap bottles of wine to put my spooky bottle covers on.
It’s amazing how much happier I’ve become since I started studying. I can ignore all the things that used to bring me down because now at least I’m doing something to change my situation. I’m getting an education which will get me a job I like which will get me money which will get me more freedom. It’s a plan and I’m following it. It’s great to feel that I’m moving forward again rather than being stuck at some dead end job. Retail, I’m through with you!
I went to my old job (the thrift store) yesterday. The book section looked chaotic. Whoever’s in charge of it now clearly isn’t as good at organizing things as I am. It was a bit hard to see after spending hours and hours making that section of the store perfect. I had to remind myself that it’s not my problem since I don’t work there any more. Still, it made me kind of sad seeing something I’ve worked so hard with ruined.
Speaking of something entirely different… I’ve reorganized my showcase.
This is what it looked like in December.
I hate how many WordPress plugins contains invalid code. It’s probably valid if you use the Transitional Doctype but I use Strict and therefore have to change these codes. The problem is that the plugins are written with code far more advanced than anything I can do so it can be quite a hassle to figure out what I can change and delete without messing up the entire plugin.
I’m kind of obsessed with having my entire site validate correctly but why shouldn’t I be? Valid code is like correct spelling. Sure you can read a text that’s badly spelled but it’s probably harder to understand. It’s the same with browsers. Sure they can display invalid code but often it looks kinda funny and not at all how you intended it to look.
What I hate even more than invalid code is code that’s valid but works differently in different browsers. This layout should work fine in all browsers besides maybe the most unusual ones but I think that has more to do with those browsers not being that good than my code. Still, it’s annoying. I remember back in the days when you coded for one browser and put up a disclaimer stating which browser (and resolution) your site should be viewed in. Not very user friendly, but still, easy.
It’s interesting to think about how coding has evolved in the past ten years. When I built my first web page back in 1999 I coded in HTML and didn’t use any CSS whatsoever. My first site was basically two frames. One with a text link menu and one main window for the content. The menu frame had a black and white background with tree branches (a photo I scanned) and the main frame was black. It didn’t look too bad considering what many other sites back then looked like. I’m proud to say that Whirlwind never have contained ugly clipart, dolls or annoying moving GIF images. Besides my celebrity blend phase I’ve always kept it pretty simple, not using too many colours or too much graphics.
I wish I still had my first layout saved but every layout I made up until 2001 were lost years ago. There wasn’t that many of them but still, it would have been cool to be able to look at them.
When did you start web designing and what did your first layout look like?