Once again I’m sorry about the fact that I once again have neglected my blog, once again not because I’ve been busy but once again because I just haven’t felt like blogging. Once again I promise I’ll try to blog more often but once again it’s very likely that won’t happen. So, with all that said, hello friends, foes, stalkers and random unfortunate who somehow ended up here after googleing something odd, did you miss me?! 
After not blogging for weeks I should probably start this with an update on what I’ve been doing. I’ll summarize it for you: fear of cancer and too many doctor’s appointments, angst about money, web design, a bit of shopping, taking long walks on beautiful summer’s days and being depressed inside on rainy summer days when all I want is to take long walks on beautiful summer’s days. I’ll now explain everything in detail.
1. Fear of cancer and too many doctor’s appointments
Like two months ago I discovered a lump above the knee on my right leg. I googled the problem and read that basically either it wasn’t dangerous at all or cancer. Being someone who’s not easily scared of course I assumed what I had wasn’t dangerous at all. Hahaha yeah right… I immediately assumed I had cancer which led to the conclusion that I was dying. Knowing that I was dying I imagined saying my farewells to my family, cried and then started imagining (planning) my funeral. After deciding on the ceremony, music and type of flowers to lay on my casket I cried myself to sleep that night. Eventually I went to see a nurse who sent me to a doctor who sent me to another doctor at the county hospital. Turns out it’s just fatty tissue, one of those nice tumours that does no harm. Obviously this was great news and I immediately stopped planning my funeral.
2. Angst about money
I’ve been a university student since January. It’s a well known fact that it’s now June. That means school is over for this term and so is my student loan for this term. This leaves me without a income and that means I’ll live on government welfare money this summer. I’m not sure exactly how much (little) I’ll get but it will be a few hundreds of dollars less than what I’m used to. I’m trying hard to focus on the bright side of this which is that at least I get welfare money which means I get to keep my apartment and don’t have to sell my computer, body or left kidney to feed myself. Alright I wouldn’t have to sell my left kidney if I didn’t get these money but I would have had to move back to my family’s house. That would be traumatic for both me and my family. Traumatic for me because I’m almost 27 years old and have lived on my own for four years and traumatic for them because I’m almost 27 years old and they thought they got rid of me for good when I moved out of their house four years ago. Anyway, that was the bright side of this situation; I get to keep my apartment. Unfortunately focusing on it is hard when there’s also a not so bright side which is the fact that I won’t be able to afford a vacation this summer. Bye bye bike vacation on Öland! T_T
3. Web design
Since I’m being witty about things that I in reality find no humour in it’s only logic that I’ll be dead serious about things that I’m happy about. So here we go, here’s me not being witty but serious. I recently finished a web design commission I’ve been working on for a while. It’s a site for the town’s karate club. I got the job because two of my siblings are active within the club but that doesn’t mean I can’t take pride in it. This is the first time I’m doing a web design job for people I don’t know because obviously there are more people in the club than my siblings. They liked it and I feel very accomplished. Take a look at it here: www.whirlwind.nu/1 As you can see the layout is still located on my domain since I want to finish a few small changes before I upload it to theirs.
4. A bit shopping
You know what, I’ll leave this to another blog post. Partly because I don’t have the energy to edit photos right now but mostly because that means I’ll have something to write about in my next blog post.
5. Taking long walks on beautiful summer’s days
Say what you want about Hultsfred but during summer several areas of town are quite beautiful.
6. Being depressed inside on rainy summer days when all I want is to take long walks on beautiful summer’s days
And say what you want about Hultsfred but on rainy summer days most areas of town are quite depressing since grey skies and rain makes an alredy depressing excuse of a town look even more like a depressing excuse of a town.
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Yaay, you’re almost back
haha, I too get these weeks, months, years where I just have no will to blog so I get it 
. Glad about the lump on the leg, I too get super mega worried as soon as I suspect I have some kind of disease. Hope you’ll have a great summer 
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I’m happy to hear it wasn’t cancer after all. I understand that you got concerned though. I would’ve been as well. It’s no fun when you don’t know what’s wrong …
I get what you mean. It sucks when you don’t have enough money, and it seems like things are never going to work. I have a pretty high rent on my apartment, but even so, I don’t want to move home again. Even if I get to save some money. I don’t think it’s worth it.
Wooo, welcome back Angelica! I’ve missed your blogs. Glad to see you’re back in the swing of things though.
That’s a big relief that the growth on your leg wasn’t cancerous! Don’t worry, I would have been panicking just as much, not least because I have more than my fair share of hypochondriacal tendencies.
You were planning your funeral though? *sniffle* Just out of curiosity, what sort of music and flowers were you thinking of? Lol. At the moment I’m leaning towards gladioli and Monty Python’s “Always look on the bright side of life” for mine, haha.
Bummer about not getting your student loan over the summer though – that bites! I guess they can’t really afford to pay you for 2-3 months when you’re not actually in class though…pity! Student allowances work the same way here too, though we do still get ours during the winter break (4 weeks). But come summer you have to apply for it all over again for the next year.
And wow, that karate site you made looks FABULOUS! I love the hover effects in the menu, with the stances changing – very clever!
Oh life, so complicated!!! My character was a horde undead warlock and now I have a horde undead mage haha.
Welcome back, honey bee!
So glad to know that it’s not cancer. Must’ve been crazy stressful and scary when you didn’t know. So happy you went and got it all checked out hun!
Seems like you’ve got alot of stressful things going on. Hopefully it all works out soon, especially the money situation. I’m sure it will but i’m wishing you epic amounts of luck. n_n;
OMG You sound just like me! Anytime I have a problem…I google it! You have to stop! It will drive you crazy. Anyways…I’m so happy to hear it’s nothing serious, and thank god you’re going to be okay
Yeah…we had a picnic last weekend at the swimming pool and it was AWESOME! I’m going to try and do it again this weekend, hopefully the weather permits.
I love your hair…hopefully that did not sound creepy! I had purple in my bangs…but it never stays in. Do you happen to have any tips to keeping the red so bright and pretty in your hair?
Tur att knölen inte var något! Jag har också en skum knöl på ett knä som jag ska skära bort snart, men jag är inte orolig. Har haft en likadan på armen förut som inte var något farligt så det finns typ inte i min världsbild att den här skulle kunna vara något värre. Jag kanske reagerar överdrivet åt andra hållet istället.
Vilken tur att det inte var cancer! Jag hade själv blivit smått hysterisk över det också.
Och webbsidan för karateklubben är riktigt snygg! Jag gillar verkligen menyn!
Bra jobbat!
Bwahaha — Hurrah for being back in the blogging scene, somewhat!
I actually completely understand what you’re goin’ through with the whole, ‘don’t really feel like doing fuck all with your site’ thing. Every time the Summer rolls around I feel the exact same way! x_X; It can be a little annoying. In the Winter, though, I always feel like updating, because, well … What else is there to do?! Go outside?! I don’t think so. XD;
On a more serious note, I remember you Tweeting about having to go on welfare, and I’m sorry that it’s hardly going to be enough to get by. That fucking sucks, massively … Is there any way you could get a part time summer job, like a high school kid does, just to help with extras, like your bike trip?
I doubt it … Here, if you have a job, you can’t be on welfare as well, no matter how small the cheque may be. x.x;
Sucky … To say the very least … I wouldn’t be able to look on the bright side at all, though. Not even a bit! So there’s that.
And dude, I just went and looked at the site design you made for that karate club, and it’s FUCKING STELLAR. I had so much fun hovering over the silhouettes on the header, LOL! I could never create anything both that professional looking as well as so perfectly coded. #_#; I’m quite jealous of your skills!
I’m so glad your lump was benign! I’d be pretty upset if you had cancer (online friends are just as important to me as “real life” people!). Aiden had a lump in his ankle a while back but it was just a benign cyst and it went away on its own, thankfully. Gotta love it.
I really love the karate website layout! The karate moves changing when you hover over the navigation just takes if from awesome to EPICALLY AWESOME. You’ll get job offers rolling in left and right soon as long as people see your work because you are talented!
and I thought I was paranoid about illnesses.. however I never planned my funeral, I’d probably kill myself V_V
you can keep an apartment on a wellfare there? that’s awesome.. I think here you’d be able to keep.. like a one room apartment in some basement or something. can’t you get a job or something?
Wish I had Eueropean weather for a while..
Wow finding a lump is terribly scary. I’m glad to hear that it was nothing, but it’s good that you checked it out when you saw it. I think everyone is suffering monetarily. Hopefully this will end when you graduate and get employed, but for the time being I guess you just have to wait.