Tomorrow I’m going to call CSN (National Board of Student Aid) and hear about what the possibilities of getting further student loans will be if I drop a class. I know there will be problems if I drop this since it’s a 15 points class which is 50% of what I’m taking this semester and you have to pass 75% of the points you’re taking to get further loans. I’m thinking that when I get the motivation to study back I’ll take another 15 points class without student loans and with that prove I can be trusted with more loans and won’t keep failing. I hope the system works the way I think it works. Otherwise, I don’t know what to do. I just really need a break from school right now. The other class I’m taking I will manage but this one, e-commerce, no. It’s too heavy for me right now. I don’t know what happened with my motivation but it just isn’t there any more. I had planned to take a break from school anyway as soon as this semester was over so this doesn’t really mess with my plans. I just want to have the option to keep studying in the future without too much problems with getting further loans.

I have no idea what I’ll be doing this summer but I’m ok with that. I’m actually kind of excited about some change. I’ve been studying online for almost a year now and I’m sick of it. Being able to plan my school work myself was cool to begin with and online studies means a lot of freedom. In the end it gets very lonely though.

I will continue study some day, maybe in a year or so. There is a college in Västerås so maybe I could go to school for real instead of just online. Funny thing is I took a online class at the college in Västerås when I lived in Hultsfred.

Other than school worries I’ve got back to my daily walks now when spring is here for real and being outside is fun again. I just can’t take walks in the winter. The nature is just too damn depressing. Colourless and dead. In the spring taking walks is a joy with the colours and life returning to the world. I’m going to take a one hour walk every day now and get back to eating healthy like I did last spring and summer. I lost a lot of weight that way and now it’s time to loose some more.