Do you find it surprising that I even though I’m not religious or believe in any god whatsoever I still think Jesus existed? I do. I don’t think he was god’s son though. Just a wise prophet who preached about peace and loving each other. Kind of like a hippie.

Why do I believe this? Well because I think there’s some truth behind most religions, except Scientology which is just a whole lot of BS. It must have started somewhere, right? And I think Jesus existed but that through the centuries his original message have been terribly distorted until not much of what it was all about in the beginning is left.

Speaking of Scientology. That must be one of the most ridiculous religions ever. If you haven’t read about it it’s a bunch of mumbo jumbo about aliens. Not unexpected considering the guy who invented it was a Science-fiction writer who did psychedelic drugs while writing his “bible”. There’s also proof that he made up a religion purely to profit from it. To make it even better they not only have a utterly ridiculous theology made up by a Sci-Fi writer on drugs but also like to use illegal methods to shut up anyone who’s publicly questioning them. Nice “religion”. Really.

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Today I got my “deklarationspapper”. Those are papers which states how much tax I’ve paid during the past year and wether I’ll get a refund or need to pay extra taxes. I get a refund of 200SEK (18€) and that’s nice.

Something not so nice is the church tax of 923SEK (85€) I’ve paid the past year. I found this quite odd conscidering I left the church one year ago. I phoned the tax agency to ask what’s up with that, thinking it was some kind of mistake and that I could get some money back. Well apparantly since I left the church in early April 2008 I still pay for the rest of 2008 aswell! So basicly I was a member of the swedish church for three months last year but I pay tax for twelve months. WTF?!

Ask me again why I’m so glad I left the church.

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Model HeidI Klum dressed up as hindu godess Kali on Halloween and now hindus are offensed by her costume. Because Kali is meant to be worshipped in temples and should be taken seriously and respectfully. Doing other might hurt the devotees.

I think religious people are too touchy. I’d have no problem going to a Halloween party as Kali, Buddha, Mohammed or Jesus. Why not? Because I’m not religious. I don’t care! I don’t think it’s offensive dressing up as a god or godess because those gods means nothing to me. It’s not like Heid Klum meant to offend hindus. She didn’t say anything mean about their religion. I think it was more of a tribute actually. Religious people can’t expect non religious people to feel the same way about their gods as they do. Sacred this and sacred that. Not sacred to everyone! We should all respect eachother but we can’t all be expected to feel the same way about everything. And the views on what is offensive and what isn’t differs between different people, religions and countries.

According to me religion is a lot of bs. I think it’s utterly stupid to turn to old books full of stories of magic. People are so desperate to believe that life has a meaning, that not everything is over when we die, that we’re not alone and that a greater power looks after us. I understand the reasons behind all that. I truly do. I’m also human. I also wonder where we came from, what will happen to me when I die and what’s the point of me existing. But I don’t choose the easy answear to that. Because that’s what religion is. The easy answear. No proof needed, just faith. Because it’s written in a book and a lot of other people also believe the same thing. Revelation, that must be the truth!

I really don’t get how people can buy it. I really don’t. Religion is nothing but a proof of our emotional weakness.

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“We must make an idol of our fear and that idol we shall call god.”

If a religious person sat down and had a long talk about life with me he/she would say that what I need in my life is god’s love. That it would heal me and fill my life with meaning and happiness. That may be true, but I don’t want to believe in god. I have this black hole of fear inside me. I fear death and the nothingness I believe follows and I fear that my life will be a waste. If I believed in god I probably wouldn’t fear death as much and I probably would feel that my life is meaningful because god has a plan for me. But I don’t want to believe in god because god is a imaginary friend. A story made up to relieve our fear of the unknown. A being created to make us feel that our existance has a meaning, a point, a reason.

I don’t think my existance has a reason. I don’t believe I have a destiny. I think our entire existence is a random coincidence.  We’re born, we live, we die. We fill our lives with whatever we want to and whatever randomly passes us by. And then we die and we’re gone. And that’s it. It’s a depressing thought but I don’t see why it shouldn’t be like that. What proof do we have of a god? A godess? A higher power? Just look at how many religions there are. Which one is the right one? Which one grant you a place in eternity? Religions are fairytales made up by scared people all over the world. Different parts of the world have different fairytales, different gods. It’s like folk lore. Stories made up to explain things we don’t understand. What’s the difference between religion and folk lore? There aren’t many people who believe in folk lore anymore but the world is packed with religious people. Because religions offer a answear to the greatest fear of mankind; death. Religions offer comforting answears to what happens to us when we die.

I understand why people turn to religion. I’m also scared of death but I’m not going to turn to fairytales to feel comfort. I’m not really a logical and down to earth person but I don’t fall for anything. Give me proof of god’s existence and I’ll believe you. Religioius people would say that you don’t need any proof, that I just have to feel it in my heart or whatever. Come again? Why on earth should I read some old book about miracles and actually accept it as the truth about life and death? Why? And why should your faith be the right one? How do you choose between all the religions out there? Of which none has any proof that anything they talk about actually is real.

I’m very scared of death. If I sit down and really think about it. How it would be to be forever gone without even the ability to think, to even know that I’m gone.  The very thougth of it terrifies me. Still I don’t turn to god because god isn’t logic. To me it’s like doing drugs because life is boring. You create an alternative world which no matter how cool it is still isn’t real. That’s god to me. We create our gods to fill those dark places of our souls and sure, our gods fill their purpose, but they’re still not real. I’m not saying I’m sure there isn’t a god. I’m just saying I don’t believe there is one. And that I don’t want to believe there is one either. I’d feel stupid kneeling down in a church praying to a character from a book written 2000 years ago. Wouldn’t you? Why don’t you?

“We must make an idol of our fear and that idol we shall call god.”

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